Why Can’t I Be Present

Today is a Present
But I don’t live in the present
The past is gone, I know.
I can’t change it. I know.
I can learn from it, I know.
The future is yet to come. I know.

But today is the ‘present’, the gift of a new start. I know!
Yet plagued with the thoughts and pains of the past, I can’t change.
Anguishing over a future event, I can’t change.
Unable to enjoy today’s present, the only aspect of life I can create, explore, and develop.

I become disabled from able.
I seem to need to live in the soreness of the past. Or control the future. I fail. I fail to live a beautiful today.
Why can’t I enjoy today’s sun
Why must I remain elsewhere?
Why can’t I enjoy today?
Why can’t I stop!
What is stopping me from enjoying!
I must stop this nonsense
I must stop.
I must live today well. Otherwise, what is my life?

So, I trust I can handle whatever future event that is troubling me —baby step at a time.
I have faith that I have learned the lesson from the past event, and I am wiser for it.

Enjoy today – the present!
A new day, a new beginning.
And to practice yesterday’s learning, build strength for the future, visualise, learn – and explore to be brave, strong, and courageous.

What I do today with understanding can only benefit my tomorrow and today.

Enjoy today, planting the seeds of boldness and fearlessness, building a quiet fortitude of inner strength that lets me know that I can handle life no matter what.

I use silent pauses to ensure that I remain unflappable in my interactions. With foresight, I know silence is a response.

I take time to nurture my family and me with good food and conversation.

I invest in self-care with uninterrupted moments of silence and peaceful reflection. Five minutes here and ten minutes there, a sprinkling of seasoning of calm and healing throughout the day, cultivating a beautiful me, a serene angel in the storms of life.